mandi thomas is not my lover. she's just a girl who claims that "I am the one."
maybe there's a God above, but all I've ever learned from love was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you.
the [Queen] of wishful thinking.
2 weekends ago, I was sooo happy to go home to California. and then by the time I was leaving, I was so unhappy with my family and disappointed with some of my friends that other than Jules and Nick’s amazing wedding, I was like WHY EVEN BOTHER? and then after a day back in Tempe, I started really missing Pleasanton again.
last weekend in Oregon was, without a doubt, one of the most awesome weekends ever. so much amazingness. I’ll probably post more later, but I haven’t because as the point of this whole post is… since coming home, I’ve been sad sad sad as fuck. it’s sucked to leave Portland and see such an amazing weekend end. it’s sucked that my bike lock got stuck and my bike is now locked to a fence and is currently un-rideable. it’s sucked being back at school and not giving enough of a shit to go to my classes all week (except one). it’s sucked and hurt a lot that my sister’s a rat bitch and won’t be visiting me anymore but will be coming to my area anyway. and it’s sucked feeling like I suddenly have absolutely nothing to look forward to. I’ve been this fat ball of depression. other than going to work for a total of about 5 hours, grocery shopping/errands for about 2 hours yesterday, and that one sports management class on monday night, I have not done shit other than sleep, eat, and watch tv shows. I haven’t really called or texted anyone back. I’ve just stayed in my ridiculously messy room, hiding out from the world.
tonight after getting home from work and eating dinner, I stumbled upon the classes for spring 2012. I’ve since spent hours putting together a schedule with everything I want (Harry Potter & American Culture and a science requirement filled by Biology Behind the Crime Scene) and everything I decided needed to be taken this semester (Special Events Management, Inclusive Community Development, Tourism Marketing) plus one more to max it out (Sustainable Tourism). I’m feeling pretty good about this schedule, the professors, and all the work availability room it leaves. I’m also hoping these classes will be quite a bit less bland than most of the ones I’m taking now. we’ll see I guess.
