the [Queen] of wishful thinking.

So I didn’t really make new year’s resolutions this year. I mean, I never really keep them anyway and I really even remember them this year. Then this past weekend, I declared via twitter that my late new year’s resolutions were “Just to do me. It’s all about doing well in school, eating better, hitting the gym harder, being happy.”

I think those are all solid resolutions, and that I do need to make some significant changes this year if I want to reach my full potential, be truly happy, and show up all those fuckers who I’ve come to hate over time. However I also think that new year’s resolutions are fairly pointless, and that it wouldn’t hurt to go a more manageable route. Cue new month’s resolutions. At the end of every month, I’m going to reflect on the past month and what I did well and what I sucked at and come up with some goals and resolutions to make the next month better.

So, here goes February…

1) No alcohol. I decided this early into the past weekend after a particularly awful Thirsty Thursday, and as a result, checking my bank account on Sunday evening was actually not unpleasant. This will also save me not only money, but empty calories from alcohol and the late night meals that usually follow a night of drinking. Plus if I’m not as concerned with going out, I’ll have more time to do health-related things like hiking and running and shit.

2) Eating healthier. No going out to eat more than once a week. 

3) Doing all my homework and going to all my classes. February alone is a good solid 4 week chunk of the semester and if I can just focus and work hard through it, that can affect my grades really positively.

4) Working out in some way every day. Going to the SRC, working out at Vista with Robyn, hiking Camelback with Brooke, free personal trainer sessions and zumba/pilates classes at the West campus… there’s so many options. I just need to do it and not be lazy.

5) Sleeping earlier and longer. I want to go to bed earlier, wake up earlier, and feel better rested.

Here’s what it should look like: I’m following a bunch of the guys who are on ASU’s football team or were and are now training for the NFL draft. They’re all pretty motivational with the #PositiveLiving tags and how disciplined they are. I will wake up every morning at my first alarm, even if I want to stay in bed, and get up and make a healthy breakfast and then get ready for the day. I will be on time and fully prepared for all my classes or work and generally be disciplined AF. I will pay attention in class and not dick around on my laptop, even if the lectures are kind of boring. I will come home at the end of the day and make a healthy dinner, work out (if I haven’t already), and get all my work done, and sleep so I can wake up the next morning and do it all again. I will not waste my time worrying about making someone happy if they won’t spend their time helping me to be happy, and I certainly won’t waste time dating or hanging out with any guys I don’t absolutely like.